Short post today! This is a tile that doesn't have the finesse that my work usually has but it's because it's my demo tile from today's Zentangle 101 Basics class. Saturdays are typically the day that I teach the 101 class and depending on when that happens in the day and since Oscar and I have deemed Saturday as game night, there isn't always time to work on something that's in progress or start something new. But rather than be stressed out about that, I've decided that since I am creating a tile (one that I've done probably a hundred times now) and sharing the creative give that is Zentangle with others, that's good enough for the day.
Day 60...officially 2 months into my daily art practice. I guess I would be at 63 days had it not been for that bad week at the beginning of June when we lost our sweet dog but I'm really proud of myself that I didn't let that become an obstacle for me. I've learned a lot over the last 2 months, as I hope I've adequately relayed. What's been great about this is feeling like I'm connecting to my true self everyday. I guess there have been days when I haven't really felt like making art but when I've felt like that I'm usually tired, maybe a bit cranky, sometimes having a pity party, but once I sit down to work on something, even if it's just sketching some ideas, I start to feel better about those other things. I've been trying to do sitting meditation for years and I'm sure I just give up too easily but I typically find myself just dozing off or full on falling asleep, even with guided meditations. I get frustrated and just stop. But I'm finding more and more that when I'm drawing, especially stuff like my cityscapes which use such intricate linework, that I'm able to focus on that so much that I can mentally sit back and observe my thoughts, much like they say to do in sitting meditation...watch them come and go like clouds. The activity of making art really does help to ground me in the present moment, which I think is why it helps me feel better, when I'm feeling upset or angsty....those things that I'm agonizing about or catasrophizing in my mind haven't happened, everything is perfectly ok right here, right now in this very moment. Then I can't help but feel grateful for this moment, for the ability to make art in this moment, for all the abundance (material and immaterial) that surrounds me in this moment. How amazing is my life? Very...very.
I worked more on the Zentangle inspired drawing today, but I was a little tired of the green so I opted to shift to the pinks on the Purk pods. I thought I'd get them all done today in just a couple of hours, but not so much. I've never really clocked how much time I spend working on my drawings but today I just happened to notice the clock when I sat down to work. I spent 2 hours, pretty much straight through, on that one pod and putting down the base layer on the other two. That may not seem like a long time, but I really did think I'd get all 3 of them done today in that couple of hours. Imagine my surprise when I saw how much time had passed and only one was done. It's interesting because I know that hours pass when I work, but once I'm in the flow, I don't really notice how much time really goes by. So, more hours are ahead for me as I continue to color.
I'm giving a Zentangle lesson tomorrow and was thinking about what I want to teach tomorrow and decided to create a Bunzo (that's the pattern name on the tile below) monotangle in a spiral formation. Bunzo is one of my very favorite tangles/patterns but it's one that I just have to remind myself to trust along the way. I always feel really funky about it while I'm working on it because my inner critic likes to chime in on how ugly it looks and how I should just give up. But I know once the spaces are colored in, shaded and highlighted, it will look cool, so I keep at it. I just love this one!
Wow...four weeks of daily art done. I guess I would have hit a month 3 days ago but since I missed three days a couple weeks back, I had to push it out a bit. I really think that this has been the most consistent I've ever been at pretty much any endeavor in my life.. I didn't set an end date when I began. I figure I'll let it go once I feel like I'm able to consistently step up to the canvas or worktable without the "pressure" of this daily art project. So, I'll keep posting because even if no one is reading, it's keeping me accountable to have somewhere to put this besides Facebook.
Today's addition to the project is 2 Zentangle tiles. Today hasn't been the easiest day. I strongly suspect that Wednesdays will be challenging until my grief substantially abates. It's been better than last Wednesday, just a few tears here and there instead of hardcore sobbing but there's also a general sense of sadness that hasn't been there on other days in the last week or so. I know it's going to take time to work through my grief...that little dog meant the world to me...so I'm choosing to be gentle with myself when I need to. The Zentangle tiles were an "easy" option, something I didn't need to think much about, plus, I haven't received the last lesson in the Art Academy so I didn't have that to work on today. I might choose to start something else later but maybe not. I'm thinking of either reading a book or starting a knitting project.
So, here's today's addition to my project (two Zentangle tiles) and a compilation of week 4's art.